My cousins left like 10 mins ago but right before they left my mom walk in my mom and asks “Is Ale here?” because she knows she’s the only cousin I talk to and I said “No, she’s over there.” And my brother shouts, “she’s over here.” And I think my mom could see that I was kinda sad and upset about how my cousin in a way ditched me. I think even my mom was maybe wondering why my she wasn’t hanging out with me and it made me realize how disconnected I am with my family. That party at my annoying cousins’ house is the only thing I could think of to explain why my cousin chose to hang out with him instead of me. Maybe they hung out a lot at the party and got closer. My mom knows that Ale is the only cousin I’m cool with so when she opened the door and learned that I wasn’t hanging out with her, she probably now thinks I want nothing to do with my cousin which is not true at all. I’m honestly sad at how disconnected I am with my family but I feel like it’s too late to get my cousin back. Idk if I should even try to get close to my family again or just say “fuck it” and stay distant.