a big part of the self work I’ve been doing over the past year has been to allow myself to receive. i am a good giver but not a good receiver. i’ve alway lumped it into a negative jumble of emotional yuckness- not being worthy or deserving, signs of weakness, incompetence and lack... to name a few... see, i told you, emotional yuckness. but by sitting with those feelings and really getting to know them i’ve learned that they are an insecure, ineffective, and inefficient protective mechanism fueled by ego that actually doesn’t serve me at all. or those around me. it negatively impacts me, and them. it stifles relational growth, emotional connection, and the ability for others to share their gifts with me. it also is the perfect food for resentment.... chew on that thought for a second! as a result of releasing my emotional block towards receiving and being conscious of my language so much abundance has flowed my way. today it was the best mail day ever (see my stories!!!!), but last weekend it was hugs and warmth and open hearted connection with old and new friends in Chicago. and the week before that it was emotionally and spiritually in Hawaii. i feel like my relationship are more balanced and grounded. that i have a better understanding of those around me, and they of me. it’s helped keep my ego (somewhat) in check. i donno, y’all, it’s just better. overall better. and i am grateful. is receiving something you struggle with too? do you have any tips or tricks or encouragement for the non receivers?! also, if you are a non receiver and know your enneagram leave that in the comments too because I’m obsessed!